About the chapbook

An account of the growing.

Preface — What the Soil Knows

I did not set out to write a collection. I set out to survive one.

These poems arrived the way seasons do — not by my scheduling, but by some deeper necessity. Some came in the dark of late hours, when the questions in me grew louder than sleep. Some arrived mid-prayer, mid-storm, mid-longing. A few were written before I knew what I was saying; only later did I understand what the words were reaching toward.

What I know is this: I am a tree. Not yet fully grown. Not always sure of my fruit, or my soil, or the climate I was made for. But I am rooted in something I cannot name entirely — only trust, and return to, and beg not to be severed from.

— Angel Idoko

What lives in these pages

Themes

  • spiritual longing
  • roots and identity
  • nature as revelation
  • emotional vulnerability
  • habitat and belonging
  • becoming
  • surrender
  • faith
  • growth through storms
  • breath and interconnectedness

The shape of the forest

Six sections.

  1. 01

    Section One

    Seedling

    What am I, if not something still trying to learn the shape of itself?

  2. 02

    Section Two

    Root and Soil

    Drag me back, Lord! I wish to cry, but I know it is not your nature to force.

  3. 03

    Section Three

    Beneath the Bark

    Lord, guide him to clarify his intent. Guard my thoughts, steady my heart, and remind me to breathe — for not him, but myself.

  4. 04

    Section Four

    Wilderness and Habitat

    Place me in my right habitat. Throw me. Let me fall hard, far, deep — planted where I belong.

  5. 05

    Section Five

    Sky and Becoming

    Because it is in dreams that the truth first learns how to breathe.

  6. 06

    Section Six

    The Vast World

    Life's beauty is meant to be lived and breathed.

The tree has survived. It is still growing. These are its rings.